Alas, Sufjan Stevens I love you..

Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.

Now, I have a lot of favorite bands/artists, but he's currently what I'm listening to and falls into the category, so there.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
This is my entire family.

(minus my animals, which count just as much!)


Well, today has been a good, chilly day. At least so far. I'm blogging early today since my Mama is about to come pick me up and take me out to their house for some hang time. Brando went into work at one so I got to spend my chilly morning cuddling in bed with him and all the animals (and Lillian of course.) I can't wait for our three day weekend together! It officially starts tonight when he gets off work, and I cannot wait! Times will be spent laying in bed all snuggly, burgers at his parents, Ponyo, and other movie watching and youtubing of cute baby animals. <3 <3. I also can't wait to try a new restaurant for our going out to eat day...I really want something with a diner feel, so I'm hoping we find something good.
Anyhow. I've got all three of my boys on the bed with me right now, curling inbetween my legs and under the covers. It's so warm in this little nest, too bad Brando isn't here to snuggle..

Here are just a couple of random shots taken today with my phone. Nothing special, just boredom. I do have a funny picture that I won't post, but will describe to you. It's a cute one of me (for once) but Brandon's butt-crack somehow got in the background and I promised him I wouldn't post it...but honestly, how does someone's butt-crack photobomb a photo!?


Oh, Link trying to fit into Brandon's chef shoes...clearly he can only get his paws inside. Sucha weirdo.

And this picture makes me laugh because Harley pup looks like he's smiling, when in reality he isn't, but he is excited to be going outside for a little tinkle. (Lilly photobombed this picture, if you can't tell.)

I've officially reached the "puffy face" stage. It's gross, and I look like a completely different version of myself. My face is puffy, my nose is wider, and my fingers and toes are starting to swell. It's gross. It makes me feel gross on top of being a zillion pounds and feeling like a mammoth. I finally had to take my wedding ring off and put it on my necklace from prevention of it getting stuck. :/ Makes me sad, I feel naked not wearing it around my finger..



The joys of pregnancy. I thought I was doing good for the whole 8 months, not any stretch marks or swelling, and then it all started to creep up on me slowly, and now there is no turning back. Lillian Rose, mama loves you, but my body will never be the same after all of this is done. My big girl.
Now, off to get dressed and listen to some random mix on 8track, which by the way is a super neat site.
Xoxo.

Ho Hum.

That is what today has really felt like. All day i've caught myself going, "hmmmmpphh" out of boredom.
Now that I can get up and move around, I do, but the sleepies have kicked in big time.
I actually slept for a full two hours this morning! That's a complete miracle. I didn't get up to pee, or switch positions or anything. I was actually dead asleep! It was amazing and felt sooo good! Even though it was only two hours, I feel like it was an entire night and I was up this morning making potato skins for lunch. (Getting back to being Betty Crocker never felt so damn good!)

The potato skins were alright, but now I'm heating the oven up for a pizza and some buffalo wings for my sweetie when he gets home. When that will be, I don't really know. What I do know is our shows come in exactly an hour, so I will have food ready and I hope that he will be here. =/

Now, my "hmmppphhs" got ahold of me again this afternoon, I just woke up from a good 45 minute nap and it's 6:01 p.m. Not good. I'm totally not going to be able to sleep tonight with all of this sleep! But then again, I might considering I get sleepy just siting up these past couple of days...

My Lilly monster is getting so big inside me that I don't think she can even get comfortable, and that makes me not be able to get comfortable...so I think we're both just really miserable and ready to stretch out and lay with each other and snuggle instead of this cramped up snuggling thing we're kind of doing now.
Seems reasonable. Seems like something super cute that I can't wait for either.
Here is a picture of me looking huge with a 36 week Lillian Rose inside me!

Can you see my sleep face?! I'm just so sleeping and all I can really wear is this tent-like dress now. My maternity shirts and coming up and showing my underbelly like a redneck, and my stretch pants are stretched so much that I had to cut them a little to fit my hips, and well, they still aren't very comfy. So once again, "Hmmpphhhhh!"

Here's the picture of the day thingy: Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
All of my little boys! They are my handsome men and I truly love them so much!





Well, that is going to be all for today, my mommy and littlest sister are stopping by for an hour or two. It's always fun to socialize with real human beings after being cooped up in the house with 2 cats and a sleep old ass dog all day...you really start talking to yourself (or them, but really it's yourself) a lot...

Xoxo.

Spring is coming!

And what better way than to have a little spring baby?
Oh yes, they're predicting that Lilly will be here any day now and if not, I'll be induced in 2 to 3 weeks depending on her size. They're afraid she's going to be too big to deliver naturally if we were to wait until my due date. So I'm hoping here in the next two weeks i'll have my little(big) one in my arms.
It's a bittersweet feeling. I'm going to miss her in my belly, just her and I having a special connection. Me feeling what kind of little movements she's doing, her hurting me when she pushes her little butt up into my ribcage. You know, the pregnant stuff. I'm also going to miss the alone time I have with my husband..we really have to cherish what time we have now, because we won't get that alone time again until we're 80. So these next few weeks (or days, it's up to Lilly girl) are going to be spent cuddling, eating dinners, watching our shows and just laying in bed doing the stupid simple things we do on the weekends.
Now, the other side of me can't wait until she's here. I can't wait to hold her close to my chest, skin on skin and to smell her little hair. To hear her cry and look into her eyes. Like I said; bittersweet.
I'm also getting really terrified of birth. I know, women do it everyday and have been for centuries. But, I am horrible with pain and my tolerance is like, a negative. I just don't see how it's all supposed to fit. I just don't. It's totally a miracle, because honestly it's scientifically just not possible. That's my theory anyway. I also asked my doctor if we could start my epidural now, you know, just in case. =)

Also, sorry about not posting a picture everyday. (No one but my mom reads this anyway, it's not like it truly matters that much.) But Brandon actually had a three day weekend, so we spent our time together relaxing, hanging out with family, and of course: eating. The thing we do best. It was a good weekend, and it made me sad this morning when he got up and left for work. He may annoy me constantly, but I miss having his big red head around..




Anyway, here are these:
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
My wonderful parents. I wouldn't be who/where I am today if it weren't for everything they've done and put up with.

Day 10 - A picture of you from your childhood.
I don't have our scanner hooked up, and all my childhood pictures are at my parents house. So, I tried to find the oldest pictures I had on my computer. Junior year I think? 17. That's still a child if you ask me.


Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.

The picture explains itself.

Well lovelies, I have nothing more to really say except for the fact that Roseanne is finally on Netflix! Weeow!
Xoxo.

The "drop."

I'm pretty sure Lilly has done it. She's officially made the "drop." I'm proud of her, I really am. But her big head and shoulders are resting upon my little bones, and I can't sit, lay, stand for more than a couple of minutes at a time without feeling completely miserable! But, in good news to this, I can breathe easier, and when I do sit down, she's not able to kick my boobs anymore..(lolz) Either way, I'll find out Monday if this is official, but I have a little feeling it is.

I totally didn't post yesterday because I took about 3 different naps on and off, trying to get comfortable. Trying to not have to pee. Trying to just lay in one position for more than an hour at a time...which is impossible. Completely impossible. So, while I was busy doing this, my mood turned to pouty, and lets just say I moped around all damn day. I woke up this morning still feeling mopey, and it's foggy as hell outside. So honestly, what is the point, right? I will take to my bed again today cause I'm a big baby.

Here's this for yesterday and today though:
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.

My baby belly, of course. =) Back when she was a tiny little baber.

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.

This was my graduation day, May something, 2007, and I got my Mac for a graduation gift from my parents. My teta was in town (which was rare, sadly) and we had so much fun playing on the photobooth. I miss her so much, but this picture was taken before we knew she was sick, and everyone was happy and healthy. Pretty much a priceless picture I'd say.

And this..totally wasn't taken in 2005 because I didn't even know him then, but 2008. We went to the dollar store and bought those ugly ass fake teeth and sat in my car taking pictures at like, 2 a.m. laughing constantly at the outcome of what we looked like. Plus, we were so cute back then. All young and in love.

Stressful day.

I know I've posted a little about how one of my kitties has been acting out. Peeing on things and such.
Well, today I caught him, and when I took a look he had a little blood in his urine.
So, being the overprotective, psycho mommy that I am, I flipped out and we rushed him to the vet.
He (hopefully) just has a UTI, and got a shot and some meds, but I still need to keep a close eye on it just in case he's got crystals or possible diabetes.
I'll tell you, I was a hot mess seeing that my baby was in pain, I almost sent myself into labor I was so worried.
I can only imagine what it's going to be like the first time Lillian gets sick.

Anyway, here is a picture of my brave, sickly little boy.

Such a sweetie.

Oh, and of course this: Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.

This is just because I love her outfits and she's super rich. Duhz.

In other news, nothing has really been going on in my life that is worth posting/talking about.
Lilly has been moving, or trying to move a lot lately. Especially in the evenings. I wonder if that's a sign of her coming soon or not. I don't think she's officially 'dropped' yet because she's still so jammed up in my ribs, but who knows. She could be dropped and in my ribs considering she's a giant. :) Oh, my sweet little girl. I'm anticipating your arrival so much. Eeeek, since I'm almost 36 weeks, I've been walking around the house more and getting out a bit. It's been a long, bedresed 7 months but I am officially sick of laying down.
I wake up every morning at 7, see Brandon off to work and am completely bored by 9 a.m.
The rest of my day is peeing, eating, and piddling around the house. What joy.
But anyway, I guess that's all for this evening, Vampire Diaries is about to come on and Brandon is being forced against his will to watch it with me. True Love.

Love my hubs.

He got off early today and cleaned the entire house for me.
It smells so clean and wonderful, he even lit one of my candles.
He's so lovely.
And it's about to get lovelier- he's cooking my favorite chicken platter with his special sauce.
Soooooo yummy. And soooo happy I married a chef. <3

, Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.


This isn't really a specific memory, but it was taken when B and I first started dating.
After two weeks of us spontaneously talking, we started dating and said I love you.
We'd spend days off driving around, listening to Brand New and New Found Glory, thrift store shopping and eating out. We'd spend days out on our friends front porch drinking coffee and playing the day away in video games. Those are some of my most favorite memories. If I had pictures of my childhood on my mac, i'd post some of those too, but sadly I don't.

Xoxo lovelies.

Day 04 - A picture of your best friend.

To the person that puts up with me no matter what.
That loves me unconditionally no matter what.
To the person that truly knows me, inside and out, ugly and pretty.
I love you to the moon Brandon Scott Sugg.
You are the best friend I've ever had, and I can't wait to be best friends with you until the end of time.

To my little bird:

"and when the sky drops all those feathers
and when the birds sing in the morning
I'll be a mama, I'll have a daughter

and I'll give her melodies
I'll give her melodies


and she'll be my little bird
...and then she'll fly"


I am so in love with this song I stumbled upon. It makes me cry and I just keep replaying it.
I cannot wait for my little to come into this world. I can't wait to hold her little hands and brush her little hair.
To see her gummy smile for the first time, and to kiss her forehead when she gets sick.
I can't wait to smell her new baby smell, and pinch her little cheeks...
Becoming a mother is so, so scary, because I am left with someone's soul in my care, someone who can't do anything for herself. And whatever happens is all on me. However she turns out is all on me.
But everyday I am becoming more confident, and I promise you little that I will always be here for you no matter what.
I promise I will do the best I can to raise you to be a beautiful, smart, independent, selfless girl in hopes you'll be the same as a woman.
xoxo,
Your mommy.

Happy Heart Day:

We went to check up on bby girl this morning.
My little (not so little) weighs 7lbs 5oz, and I'm only 35 weeks along.
To put it plainly, they are going to have to saw me in half to get her out.
Yowza.
I'm so happy she's doing so well and is healthy, but good lord I am freakin' about birth now!

Cheers for monitoring on vday!

And also, Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show:

'till next time folks.

The super fast "Yum" post.

Last night Brandon and I had breakfast for dinner. Probably one of my most favorite meals ever. And since he is finally off a day or two, we woke up this morning and had cinnamon rolls. Double yum. And now, we're about to go over to my parents house and cook burgers and such. Triple yum.
I've officially become a fatty.
BUt that's ok.

Here's day 2's picture:
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.

My beautiful momma and me. I know you can't see our faces, but that was on my wedding day, and she was giving me a suffocating hug. <3

Welp. Now off to go eat more yumms.

I've decided since I'm running out of Desperate Housewives to watch online and am practically caught up on the series, and that I have nothing else to do during the day, that I would start this little challenge. Just to keep myself occupied. 30 day picture challenge:

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts.
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of your best friend.
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of you from your childhood.
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19 - A picture and a letter.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of your favorite day.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

So, I'll start it today.
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts:

(this was at our very first apartment that I loved, and although it's a terrible picture of me, it shows me doing something I love so much. Cookin' and being a host)
1) I love being a housewife and doing womanly things, suchas cleaning and cooking.
2) I'm obsessive when it comes to my home being clean and in order.
3) My animals are my life, but they frustrate the hell out of me constantly.
4) My daughter is about to be my entire world, and I am so excited/scared out of my mind.
5) I am really ungrateful for how wonderful my husband truly is.
6) My faith has risen in the past months and I'm so glad that is has. I feel less hopeless and more loved.
7) I love my family more than anything, as annoying as they are, I kind of miss living with them at times. (hence, kind of)
8) I have a spending/shopping habit that is not good, especially since we're trying to save so hard. I'll admit it, Brandon spoils me when he shouldn't.
9) I drink water like a damn camel.
10) Sometimes I regret dropping out of college, but then I wouldn't be where I am today and about to have this amazing family.

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Now, onward to the things I've done today that make me want to pull my hair out!
One of my cats has decided to pee on the dogs blanket, and for what reason I don't know why.
I've spoken with many vets/petsmart people today trying to figure out what can cause this, because I was terrified he had a UTI or something of the sort. But no. Turns out he's having some issues with change and the baby coming and is still wanting to show his dominance. He is still peeing in his litter box, and only did this once so far that i've noticed, so hopefully I can catch it before it gets too bad. I love him so much and honestly don't want to deal with all of this crap on top of freaking out about a new baby. Hopefully he'll quit after a while and some discipline and things will be smooth sailing from here on out, but for some reason I don't see that happening. Especially with my luck.
Now as for my dog, he is driving me completely insane. Since I can't be up much, taking him out has to be quick and productive during the day while Brando isn't here. But he takes forever finding somewhere to do his business and once we get inside, he'll just go wherever he pleases, and honestly it's frustrating me beyond belief! We just moved into this apartment and I don't want my damn animals tearing it up. I've always had no problems with them and a clean apartment, why are they choosing to stress me out right before I give birth? Bugh.
On the other hand, my other kitty has been so sweet and not a tad bit of a problem. He cuddles all day and doesn't drestroy anything in the house and/or stress me out. So he gets to have a picture posted today since he's been such a sweet boy:

Isn't he just beautiful?
And don't you just love Brandon's transformers bandaids? He's a chef, and a man, so we have to have these in stock.
Also, my display of vitamins/oils for baby girl are quite a lot.
Humph.
Since I've got a terrible headache, and Brandon doesn't get off for another two hours, I suppose I'll try and take a nap.
Boy, my days are just so eventful aren't they?
:/

I crave cleaning,

(34wks with my LillyPad)!
Although I've done more than I've done for weeks, I crave the need to do more.
I am craving to get on my hands and knees and scrubs the baseboards (they aren't really that dirty, just some places) and to vacuum every inch of the house, wipe down mirrors/counters/tv's, organize my cabinets/fridge, and organize and mess around in Lilly's room. I seriously crave these things. Nothing was a better stress reliever to me than cleaning (other than smoking, which I quit a good eight months ago)...and I just want to do it so badly to calm my nerves.
I crave cleaning. Ahhhhhhhhhhh. The smell of cleaners and a good sweat never sounded so good. :/ , *pout pout*

First, as any typical Monday we went to monitoring.
And afterwards, I felt like getting out for a bit so my love and I went to Hastings where I got a decaf pumpkin spice and sat my little tush on the couches and read gossip magazines while he walked around in the movies/music.
Then, we ventured out to Lowe's to get myself some groceries, and since we were only in there for a short time, I opted out on riding the embarrassing scooter and walked (waddled super slowly).
And now we're home. And i'm back in bed. Again. Like always.
!!!! It's so frustrating when I get a little taste of what the real world is like these days, and then as I go to want more, I start hurting and remind myself to sit my ass down, for baby's sake of course. So in a way, today has been wonderful/hell.

Last time I got checked (cervix wise) things were still about the same, and they told me I could get up a bit more and walk around some, but I'm still too scared to. But now that I'm in the 34th week, I've been doing a little every day. If my little love were to come, she'd be fine, maybe a week or two in the NICU and that's all, so my stress is down, but I still don't want to go into labor anytime soon. (Even though soon is like, super soon because I only have 6 more weeks until my due date! Freaky!)

So, as I sit here, having a minor contraction, I am racing through my mind all of the things I need to get done before she gets here. Pack my hospital bag. What on earth do you pack in that? I don't wear a bra or undies (TMI, sorry) and I sit around the house in bed pretty much all day in a t-shirt. So, I've decided to pack my toothbrush/paste, contact stuff, my robe (but I use it daily so I'll just keep it by the bag when I'm not wearing it), and some comfy t's and a pair of pajama pants. Is that good/decent? I don't know. I kind of don't care. I'll just make Brandon go get the stuff if I forget anything anyway.
As for Lilly, I've packed her diaper bag with some things, diapers, little pacifiers, burp clothes, receiving blankets, and mittens. Now if we could only find "the outfit" for her to come home in, I think I'd be set. I'll probably pack a couple of onesies and other outfits in case I panic and don't like the one we end up choosing....

In other news, I lay all day in bed with my cats. So my phone is filled with a zillion pictures of them. Because they are my only friends and probably the cutest cats I know...so here's a glimpse of what's been going on lately with us felines:





My poor pup can't get on our new tall bed with us, and I can't pick him up to put him up here, let alone get him down, so he chills next to the bed in his own little pad we made him. I can't wait until I can get on the floor and play with him again. He's getting so old and smelly, I'm afraid I'm losing time with the old man. :(

Annnd that's about it for today. I've really got to get on the ball about mailing these thank you cards from my baby shower. (which by the way turned out way awesome) Lillian got lots of cute things. This child will be super stylish and super clean. :D