The thunder sounds different here,

Even though Lubbock is getting snow, I still wish to be there. Here it's just raining, the rain isn't the same, and neither is the thunder. The air smells sweeter than it does in Lubbock, but, my heart feels empty.
Brandon and I are having a really hard time adjusting to all of this. Shitty things keep happening and it feels like we can't catch a break. My parents brought my car, it broke. My daddy is so sweet and bought me a new car, but can't get it to me for another week. So, i'm stuck at home, like I have been for a whole flippin' month. Brandon's car is acting funny, but that's nothing new. Although we have our rent paid for February, we're still freaking out about money. We can't find jobs anywhere. Many interviews, but no jobs. Plus, everything these days is done online, which is shitty to me because people can't actually see you or your personality over the screen of a computer.
We've gotten desperate and have applied at fast food places, and I'm trying to stay positive, because if I work for McDonalds, I get free food. That's a perk I suppose. But it just really sucks. I want to be a nanny or work at a daycare and nowhere near me is hiring except for downtown. Which I live a good 30 minutes from...and that's if there is no traffic. Mugh.
And, while I was in a good mood the other night, I was dancing around singing Anastasia to Brando and a freaking fire ant bit me!

So, I got my haircut, and I think that I resemble a little anime character. It's a lot shorter than I've had it in quite a while, but I was just so miserable and getting some change in my life really made me feel a lot better. It's weird how little things like that can boost your spirits.


On top of crappy things, I'm really disappointed in people. Not just a few, but all. Now that I'm getting older I've realized that making and keeping friends is really hard to do. I'm hoping that Brandon and I find some people to hang out with soon because we are literally going crazy. It's better to be more mature and let the past be the past than keep in anger.
So. The whole point of this blog was:
-people are shitty
-got my hair cut
-we can't find jobs
-and i got a new car
//// Mer. Xoxo , ,

Trees keeping growing..

Well, my family left yesterday morning. I had a break down, of course because I'm emotional like that. I had the best time with them. I loved walking around the park with them, going downtown and eating Lebanese pies and just being around their loud, cheerful voices. We walked around drinking coffee and hot chocolate in the Domain, and ate at a badass restaurant that ended up being totally freee! . :3 Daddy liked that a lot. ,
I'm trying my best to stay positive. As soon as my parents left, my car that they had just brought down, broke. BROKE.! How sad! So now I'm stuck at home yet again. I just really need a job and I'm kind of freaking out about the money and such. But, like I said, I'm trying my best to stay positive.
It's been a good morning, baby boy went to school, and I got to wake up my sisters via skype! i've been listening to Azure Ray quite loudly and making my kitties dance. I made my coffee perfectly, so I'm hoping my bad luck streak will end. We hung out with another couple last night as well, and that was fun just to get out of the house and interact with other humans!
I'm trying my best to be there for Brando but I need to be stronger. He's doing all of this for us, and for me. I take him for granted and I need to stop. He's so strong. I just can't wait until the next December, we'll hopefully be back in Lubbock, get married and get to start our family. And he'll have a career. We'll have a future and such a beautiful life. I absolutely cannot wait.
I wish my daddy would send me the pictures we all took this weekend, but he is still trying to figure out his new laptop and brand new zillion dollar camera. Oh, us arabs and our technology. We must have the most big and best out of it all. :3
My cats were little hellions this past weekend as well. Little Obi is obsessed with my paint brush's and will drag them around in his mouth around the house. He's my little artist. As for Link, well, he's still attempting to eat my fish and destroy my knitting. I know what I've knitted so far isn't great, but damnit he's just messing it up even more! Oh well, I don't know what I'd do without my sweet little babies.
My pups breath is getting worse, and he demands to be in my lap 24/7. I think I'm going to get a nose plug or something because dog breath mints aren't working..what a gross old man.
Welp. It's around eight in the morning, i've been up for a good two hours. I'm thinking it's time to take my daily nap?
Oh yeah. Xoxo,

Lost at Sea,

Oh my goodness. I don't think i've felt this shitty in quite a while. What is with the sickness in Austin? My body hurts, my tummy hurts, my head hurts. Everything on me hurts. I'm also pretty sure I've gotten Brando sick as well. *cough.
Sooner or later I am going to kill Link (one of my cats) if he does not stop trying to eat my fish! He's got this weird obsession with climbing on the counter, onto the bookshelf and standing right in front of the fish bowl, slightly tapping at the fish. Whilst he is doing this task, he manages to knock over books, glass owls, and mostly stuff that is made out of glass. I've secretly planted tape on the counter and by the fish to see if I can trap him in the act..we'll see how well this plays out.
My oh my I cannot wait for my family to visit me on Friday! They're bringing my car! (YAY!) and they're staying for the rest of the weekend. I'll get to show them the neat parks, take them up the mountain and walk them around downtown and such. Too bad Shy can't come. Stupid SAT crap. Oh well, maybe she'll get to visit during spring break or something neat like that. Hehe, my daddy is too cute. He's called me at least 8 times this morning making sure he's got the right route planned out to get to my house and the hotel reservations. It's really funny, and I can honestly say I miss him a lot. But I am so thankful to have such a nice and loving daddy to let me use the credit card when i'd like to get myself Arby's just because I don't feel like cooking. Oh my, moving has really made me realize what a beautiful life I have with my family, fiance' and friends. Xoxo.
I keep having insane dreams. Some where I have ants biting me all over my body, and some where I am protecting my cats from hunters. It's really weird. I don't know if i'm going crazy due to the niquil or what. Oh well, at least my dreams are keeping me entertained.
Anyway, last night whilst skyping with my family, my litlest sister decided to pray for our family to all become mermaids with golden tails and wavy hair. I'm thinking that would be pretty neat. But isn't she the cutest thing ever?


! Oh, Brando and I bought some badass bath crayons and they are the neatest things ever created. I love this boy so much. Lately it's just been us two hanging out, which has been really nice. I mean, we'd love to have friends and hangout with some other people every once in a while, but it just being us feels good. We bought a penguin puzzle, and thank God I picked the 750 piece because he wanted a bigger one and this one so far is so huge we can't fit it on our coffee table. ! ack!
Hopefully in the next year we'll be able to finish it. ^_____^ ,

Welp, time to go soak my sickly body in the bath and draw on the walls.
Xoxo.

You can see that birds and worms don't get along, self righteous me so wrong.

Mah. I am sitting at home alone, which is fine. BUT. I went out to smoke on the patio and heard something in the bush's. I'm pretty sure it was either a bum or a kitty. I'm really hoping it was a kitty. I am a frady cat when it comes to being home alone. Ack. Ack.
Hm.. what to do what to do? I made some badass little yellow/chocolate swirl cupcakes..yet there is no one here to eat them. And I don't want them. I just like to bake stuff.
I've played a few games of Super Mario and have gotten so completely frustrated and pissed that I'm kind of not in a good mood anymore. But alas, I figured out how to plug in the vcr so I'm set on some Disney movies for a bit.
I'm getting pretty tired of traveling to wal-mart to exchange tights. Here's the story: I bought a super cute pair, brought them home and realized that they were little girl tights, and wouldn't go past my knees. FAIL. So I exchanged them for a box of four tights, took those bad boys home and realized that they are pantyhose, not tights. FAIL AGAIN. So, now I'm going to have to go back to the dreadful lines yet again. Yuck yuck.

// Float along along along.
This is by far my new favorite movie of all time. If you haven't seen Ponyo, make it a priority that you do.
I'm simply in love with how cute it is.


Today I went to a Goodwill here in Austin and let me tell you, I about shit my pants. This was the biggest, most amazing Goodwill I've ever seen. I wanted to buy so many things (but couldn't due to being broke) it was unreal. I also found this amazing book store yesterday that has used books/records/comics. Their romance section was unbelievable and the smell of wood and old books was so overwhelming; I loved it. I'm actually going to go and apply there as soon as I get my car.
Anyway. I'm going to go and torture my kitties or something.
Xoxo.

Crow jane quit me and I just cant cope.

I'm fucking lonely. Anxious. Stressed. And about a million more other things.
I need a break from reality.

(Through the looking glass)

The past two days I've been extremely down. I know it's the lack of human contact, not having a job/money, and no car..but it's really starting to get to me. I feel like I've been caged up for years, except it's only been two weeks. I love my little apartment, Brando and the pets but I really need to see outside of these cutely decorated walls.
Only one more week until my family comes to bring my car and visit me. I'm so excited!
I'm thrilled to drive around by myself, smoke a cigarette, roll the window down and listen to music. (as stupid as that sounds) Who would've thought I would ever miss driving and working? Weird.
I'm going through another "Friends" stage. I watch about 2 discs a day until sadly, I will get to the last one and be upset with myself that I watched them too fast. Stupid. Stupid.
I'm getting more into anime for some odd reason. Hm. Probably because I'm feeling so odd.
I need friends! I need a job! AHHH.! I'm literally fucking going insane...
No, but really. My daily routine consists of waking up and seeing Brando off to school, skyping with my family while my little sisters get ready for school and my parents drink coffee, (insert nap here) and then boredom sets in until I finally go back to sleep. Eesh.
I think tomorrow I'm just going to sit on the patio the whole day. I need fresh air and I'd walk the pup around but we secretly have all of our animals here and are avoiding the dreadful pet deposits. Soon I'll get my car and we'll go to the park like we did back home, I promise.
Welp. My fingers are tired from knitting, so I suppose I'll take a bubble bath, drink some chai and read until I pass out.
Xoxo.


(away, away!)

Early bird special!

Mmm, nothing like a tummy ache at 5:30 in the morning. :/ ,
I saw Brandon off to school, and would've stayed asleep if it wasn't for my damn neighbor upstairs making so much racket. My mom and I were talking and we think that he's chopping bodies or something up there. He's got to be doing something illegal because he is seriously up day and night throwing himself onto the floor or something. But, mother and I also have very morbid imaginations so who knows. He just needs to quit moving, period.
My coffee got cold and I'm too lazy to get out of bed and go heat it back up. Damn!
I love skyping with my family in the mornings. I was playing Lady GaGa to my sisters for them to wake up. I'm a regular 'ole Dj.
Wooop!
My littest sister got glasses yesterday, how cute! So now all of us have glasses. Way to rock the blindness, huh? ;)



Why is it sooo cold!?
I'm literally shivering at the thought of getting up for the day. Bleh.

I'm really hoping I get this nanny job coming up, because if I do, it'll be for only 4 weeks, and i'll be getting paid around $3,000. That's like, a zillion dollars to me. That's also like, hello i can take another month off of working again after that. Heh.
I can also afford to do my daily Dollar Store/Wal-mart/Target runs. EEEK!

Hm. Will someone in Lubbock please send me Taco Villa or Rosa's? I'm craving and missing both of those things oh so badly! Just mail it, i'd probably still eat it i'm that desperate...

Ersh. I guess I'm going to get up, run the pup out, feed the fatass kitters and cook myself something for breakfast.
Here's something to leave you with!
YARN KITTY!

House of the rising sun,

Yes yes. That Bob Dylan song has been on repeat for about a day and a half now. Merk. I've had a xanger before but I have never had an actual "blog." Hope I'm doing it all right. Actually, I take that back I don't care. It's my blog. I've just got to say that here in Austin, the people are truly weird. I love it though. I don't have to shower or fix my hair when I leave the apartment. (Not that I ever did in Lubbock) People don't care what you look like and everyone here is super nice. Weird as shit, but nice. Must be all the drugs everyone does that puts them in a good mood.

Hey Lubbock, you should try some crack or something so maybe everyone won't be assholes that live there. Heh.

Oh, my little kitter cats are being too cute. They've found Brandon's school bag and sleep in it. I can place them in there and just drag them around. So sweet. Except for Link scratched my face and I have a huge scab on my chin. Awesome.

As for Harley pups, he is being his sweet, sleepy self with bad breath as usual. He still won't quit eating cat poop though. So sick.

Nom. Nom. Brandon looks so cute in his little chef uniform/outfit he has to wear to school daily. So precious! I have to wake up early and see him off and put his hair in a ponytail because he doesn't know how to. So far he's loving the classes and I'm so very proud of him. Plus his knife set is worth $4,000, and it's badass.

We're having a little trouble finding jobs here, but I've gotten a couple of hits on my posting to be a nanny. One lady is willing to pay me $20 an hour for a month while she's here for business. I pray to God I get that one! I'd be a billionaire! Or close to one at least...

Welp, smoke time. I'm boring.

This is all move love to the whole universe.